May 2nd. The battle starts.

So, early today I got the promised text message to remind me that today life as I know is gonna start to change. My newly hired nutricionist, let's call her Anna, reminding me that my appointment was set for 7:30 p.m.

I got all excited since last week that I called her and ask her to help me out with this serious changing episode I'm starting in life. The weekend I went to PriceSmart with mom and bought serious kick-ass snacks high in fiber and low in fat to get everything prepared. I spent serious money on it.

So today, after barely making it at work, I even wait for the bus in a different stop with hopes of getting home faster and get prepared for the night! so exciting! I drank some juice, eat some food, smoke some cigarrette and watch some TV. at 7:20 I left for Anna's office, got there 5 minutes later. She opened the door for me and my first thought was damn... I wanna look like her in a month! That's not gonna happen of course, she has won the freaking genetic jackpot and probably could eat a cow a day and still will look like that. I've known her since forever. Well, anyways, there's nothing in the world you can't make with a little of determination and a lot of focus.

Ok, then we have to start somewhere and the ugliest part comes first: the weighing. The scale says something that I really felt like a bitch slap: 81.6 kg.... and I'm like, what the fuck have I been putting in my mouth lately? (that's what she said, hehe). No, seriously, that's freaking much. So then I feel embarrased... and then I snapped the hell out of it... that's why I'm here for, isn't it? to confront my fears, and to fix myself up. It is what it is and I'm the only one who is responsible for it.

So now we're talking about what we are gonna do to resolve the issues (I love that we talk, we think, we decide) and the solution doesn't seem that bad: I must eat little but often, with controlled portions of each thing. It's a lot of things to take into account and really boring to describe here (besides, my brother wants to sleep and the computer is in his room), so, I'm not gonna mention them here, but the point is, is not that bad!! I'm not going to die of hunger that soon. The problem is, there's a big way to go.

Ha, the bad news are, my energetics drinks are banned like, forever... the snacks I bought from PriceSmart are completely useless cause even though they're low in fat, they're high on sugar and I must be sugar free for the next month... ah! and no PB&J for me...

But that's the road to go. I'll keep it real though, not gonna be sleeping all morning because the nutricionist said no Jet... no way... but I won't drink 1 a day either. It's a compromise... And I'm hitting the gym as much as I can!

It all begins... Of course you're beautiful, inside and out.